Lately, I’ve been finding myself all by my lonesome with only my pen and paper and the voice inside my head for company, and actually enjoying every moment of it. I go out and eat alone without any hesitation whatsoever, whether it be in a crowded place or in a secluded restaurant. I find myself strolling around the mall without any company and choosing a coffee shop or a restaurant or even a book store to have a quick stop over. If the place I choose is conducive and to my liking, I find myself staying for a longer period of time just pondering about the smallest of things to the bigger burdens I’m currently facing.
It’s weird, I know. Me, of all people, on the way towards becoming a full-fledged loner!
Perhaps, it’s the busy lifestyle I’m currently having right now – such that, whenever I have the opportunity to have a little peace and tranquility, I grab it right away and make the most out of it. Or maybe it’s an offshoot of months of having minimal contact with people during my post-kidney transplant recovery period. I really don’t know.
What I do know is that I’m actually yearning for more time all by myself. I’ve actually been looking for the place.
The place where I can sit down comfortably and not care about the entire universe. The place where I can think of all my desires and even my concerns and issues, and not worry one single bit. The place where I can be me – with no one around to judge or react or criticize.
It’s weird, I know. But I’m actually liking this other side of me.
3 comments:
it's all a part of growing up, jayps. and it's always good to have your own "my time." :)
haha! yeah, i'm becoming more mature na! :) aren't you proud of me?
so proud! :p
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